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livejournal: where you go when myspace is down [31 Jul 2006|11:53pm]
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Damn long time! lol.. I made another lj and had like two entries in it and then got frustrated or stoic and just stopped updating. I actually had deleted this one but then decide to log in today. I wondered if I could change the account status from deleted to active and I could, even though it has been way past 30 days... love livejournal. I was reading some of my old entries.. wow.. it's crazy how long ago all of that stuff was. I was such a dork (although I know I still SOMEWHAT am).

I actually found a survey that I did like a year and a half ago.. that I, ironically, also did on myspace today .. well it's like 90% the same survey, like it has 90% of the same exact questions, plus some. I'm going to post them sometime soon (my favorite expression lately - sometime soon) in another entry in comparison, cause I answered yes to some things in the survey two-ish years ago that I had "done" that I said no to in this one that I did today.. lol... only a couple but it's funny.. like a year a half ago I said yes to the question "ever pet a reindeer or goat" and then today I said "no".. I honestly don't know what the answer is.. maybe I did when I was little and I had a better memory when I did the survey the first time.

I'm so used to not capitalizing my i's but I decided that since most of my lj entries are pretty good with the whole capitalization deal, I might as well stick with that theme.. in blogs I don't really capitalize anything.. for some reason..

I know that not that many people care about livejournal anymore since myspace became the next best thing to a cell phone but i'm gonna keep it just incase I really feel like writing, if myspace is down (lol), or maybe I really will start updating it again. 35% of the population in the U.S. has a myspace, that's amazing.

SO MUCH HAS CHANGED since i've updated this lovely journal.. going to go to macomb now cause Wayne State represents everything I hate.. and it was a terrible experience. I'm gonna go there this year, take all credits that are transferrable to Grand Valley, then as long as everything goes through correctly, transfer there so by Fall of 2007 I will be a Junior at Grand Valley. I have to have my college experience, I just have to.. and Wayne State definitely wasn't that. I can not make my only college experience be Wayne State, especially since I decided to go there b/c of the people in my life (my best friend at the time and boyfriend at the time). I'm going to go to a university no matter what, i'm not letting anyone effect my decisions on my education anymore, it's not a good idea. So, anyway this year at macomg I can (hopefully) enjoy my classes with my two best friends and hopefully do well, unlike the 2nd semester of Wayne State hahaha, more like the first semester where I was a gangster and got an A- in Physics by only showing up to the tests and setting the curves. August 23 = first day.

I worked at HH again for like four months, bailed someone outta jail, quit hungry howies, got hoed by guys... reconnected with my now two best friends in the whole world= Nicole and Allison (Nikkay & Allay). Still experience drama every once in a while but that's what happens when you are friends with girls, it's like unavoidable. Either way, I still have the best friends in the entire world.

My hair is getting so long, which is wonderful, cause it's never really been "short" but hasn't been this long in.. forever!

Myspace's login is temporarily disabled and it makes me really sad. So, until it gets fixed i'm gonna just browse my old lj entries.. and reminicse or whatever. Ha


[20 Jan 2006|12:40am]
i know i never update.. no one really does anymore.. but i have something that is worth it..

hotel party saturday night! i'm throwing it.. i don't know any details yet lol

call my cell 5865040238 and ill update you

[25 Dec 2005|09:28am]
umm yea so alls I wanna say is..

can christmas just be over with yet?
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[20 Dec 2005|10:57pm]


yay, i'm happy

I have 42 hours this week.. 2 hours overtime, that's crazy

[09 Nov 2005|06:11pm]
I hope this wind doesn't blow me (and my car) away

[09 Nov 2005|01:24am]
Since you all have waited so patiently, i'm going to try to make my update of significant length and substance lol.. like that's actually going to end up happening.

THIS IS GOING TO BE ALL ABOUT SCHOOL (just to warn you, it could be boring)

Yesterday I registered for my classes for next semester. Here is my schedule...

Tuesdays & Thursdays:

Sociology 2000... 10:40 am - 12:20 pm
Philosophy 1030... 1:25 pm - 2:55 pm
Psychology 3200... 3:00 pm - 4:25 pm
Philosophy 1050... 4:30 pm - 5:50 pm
English 1020... 6:00 pm - 7:20 pm

Basically, I have classes twice a week with about eight hour days. This is very different from my current schedule for many reasons. First, I actually like these classes. Second, I don't have to get up early. Third, I don't have class Mondays, Wednesdays or Fridays. This means that if I wanted to, I could leave for EP on Thursday anytime after 7:30 pm and not have to come back until Monday night or even Tuesday morning if I wanted to.

Now I know you are all wondering why is she taking two Philosophy classes and didn't she already have Psychology? I know you're thinking it lol.. actually you probably don't care that much but I'll tell you anyway.

The first Philosophy class is supposed to address the most "pressing questions" of our time.. Examples include: "Does God exist?" "Is there a such thing as free will?". I contemplated taking this class because I thought that it might piss me off. I still think that way but it will satisfy one of my requirements and it does interest me. The second Philosophy class is all about critical thinking and it also satisfies one of my requirements.

The Psychology class is the Psychology of "Motivation, Feeling and Emotion". As you know, Psychology is currently my minor and I had to pick one class to take next semester to satisfy myself. I am really looking forward to this class.

Oh yeah, I had a Physics test about two weeks ago and got 100% on it & the average was 60%. That class is considered so hard that 85% and up is an A. So I was really happy about that. I also had a PoliSci test last week and I ended up getting a 90% on that, which I am satisfied with. Unlike all of my other classes, it is not multiple choice and it involves a lot of writing.. I actually consider it hard. What pisses me off though, is that the question that I got a significant amount of points deducted from, I knew that I didn't know the answer to it before I took this test. I have this way of studying where I don't actually study for a test until the night before, and I just stay up all night. Well, I couldn't ask my teacher my question about this particular topic and I could not find the answer.. so I knew that I was going to end up getting it wrong anyway. And I did. It just pisses me off that that answer made the difference between a 90% and a 96%. Whatever! lol.. It really doesn't matter all that much cause I'm still going to work it out to where my average is an A.. through some intense studying, of course lol.

That was definitely enough about school.

Moving on...

Friday I saw Saw 2 and it was really good.. really gross but still good. I think that it's going to be the Nightmare on Elm Street or Halloween of our time. I think that they will keep making more. Anyway, after the movie, Sarah came over and stayed the night @ my house. It's always weird being in my room and it was especially weird to have someone stay the night with me there. Sometimes when I'm at home I feel like i'm still a senior at EDHS and Friday night I definitely did for a little while.

Saturday I went and played bingo with my mom, Candice & her mom, and my sister and her bf. My mom has taken my brother and two sisters to bingo when they turned 18 and she hadn't yet with me so we decided to do it Saturday night. For as much as an impatient and easily frustrated person as I am, bingo really isn't the game for me lol. I had fun and all that but I need to be in a very easygoing mood to play that game. I get way too frustrated and pissed off. Needless to say, I didn't win but my mom had fun and there were definitely some parts of it that were fun. What can be funner than sitting in a bingo hall with about hundred old ladies? I was like surrounded by what I'm prejudice against lol. Old ladies.. who probably frequently cause car accidents... After that I went home and ended up falling asleep pretty early.

For the past two weeks I had not been sleeping regularly.. I would not sleep about two or three days out of the week. This past weekend I got a lot of sleep back and even today I passed out for a good three hours out of no where. I've decided that I don't need that much sleep.. it just makes me lazy, depressed and unmotivated. I am much more efficient when I don't sleep that much. This brings me to my next point.. I probably won't sleep tonight.

Tomorrow I am going to my one class, spending the day doing laundry and possibly studying and then around 6 I'm going to leave for Eastpointe. I have to pick up Nikki from work and then later I'm going to see "Get Rich or Die Trying" or maybe "Tryin'" lol i'm not sure which it is.. anyway I'm going to see that with Sam (not my niece).

This weekend I'm going to be hanging out with Candice on Friday night and then sometime Saturday or Sunday, Sarah and I are going to have a psychic reading which I am pretty excited about. I'm never done anything like that before so I hope that it works.

That's about all I have to say.. I felt obligated to update since almost everyone else has. You probably won't see another one for about a week.. you know, unless something amazing happens in my life.
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Finally I update! [08 Nov 2005|06:31pm]
I'm gonna update later tonight.. I know you're excited!
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[25 Oct 2005|08:19pm]
Another survey.. have you ever?Collapse )

[25 Oct 2005|06:13pm]
This is what I do when I am supposed to be studyingCollapse )

Looks like my lj traveled back in time.. [25 Oct 2005|05:55pm]
SO every entry from September on is deleted, how'd that happen? Good thing I never wrote anything too substantial lol.

School is okay... and by okay, I mean annoying.

Last night I got back to my dorm at about 8:00 (from Eastpointe) and I fell asleep at about 8:30 and I slept until.. 5:00 this morning and that's not all. I stayed up from 5 until somewhere between 6:30- 7:00 and then I slept until 2:00. I had no idea I was that tired.. woke up to 11 missed calls and five voicemails. I had two classes between 7-2 but that's irrelevant lol.

Today I actually did something that I needed to do and cleaned my dorm. I also need to get some studying done but I don't know what the chances of that happening are.

I talked to my niece today for a bit and she wants to hang out tomorrow so I think I might hang out with her for a little bit. It works out good because Nikki lives right by her and I think we might do something for a little while too. Nikki let me know what time you work tomorrow! (if you do?).

Overall, last weekend was fun. I never knew I could walk out of a movie, have no clue what the fuck happened and really like it. I also never knew that I could find one of the scenes in the movie so sad that my eyes were watering while I still did not really even know what was going on.. and I hate McDonald's on 11 & Gratiot (it was not funny Sam!).. let's just say that when I have blonde moments, they are intense lol.

I also think it's great when you tell your best friend, "I can't go out tonight unless it's really really worth it (I was supposed to study)" and within about two seconds, they know you well enough to say suggest something you can't refuse.. lol even though it turned out kind of gay, I still had fun.. and it just means that we have to make up for it next time, right Sarah?

Once again, school is annoying.
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[25 Aug 2005|06:46pm]
So I read this book the other night.. it's called "If Life is a Game Here Are the Rules".. well anyway it had this whole chapter on life lessons.

What it said was basically that life presents you lessons throughout your life. Everyone has a different set of lessons that they have to learn.. some have to deal with divorce, some have to deal with financial problems, etc but everyone has their own set of lessons all with different degrees and such. What it was getting at was that life is going to keep presenting you the same lesson until you learn it. It will never go away until you think about what happened, why it happened and what you should get from it.

Well that's what I've been thinking about all day today. I'm just trying to figure out what my lesson is. Is it to not hate someone despite how much I really want to, is it to just forgive and forget.. to be the bigger person? Is it to make me paranoid that all guys are untrustworthy because that is where I'm at, at this point at least. I just want to know what I am supposed to learn from this.. there could be so many different things. Is is that you never really know a person.. that you think you know someone but that you could be entirely wrong?


I move in one week from today.. I can't decide if I want these days to fly by or if I want them to move slowly.. every day I wake up I just want it to be over with.. but it leaves me wondering if I'm going to miss this last week of living at home? I'm trying not to think about it too much because I won't really know until it's over with.

I want to be able to tell him that I do not hate him and that I forgive him because I want to be the better person. I really do not know if I should do that. I honestly do not hate him because I just can't. I can't say that I want to forgive him but I don't want to hold grudges because that is the worst kind of pain to just hold on to. I just don't know what to do about this.

[23 Aug 2005|04:33am]
I wish that I could be the kind of person who would just release their hate and get over it but I just can't. I'm really not a person who holds on to grudges.. if I fall out with a person I tend to try to not think about it, I don't hate them and it obviously happened for a reason. I do feel, however, that I can't help but hate the dick.

[26 Jul 2005|10:39pm]
So.. I've had a crazy past week.. I've been with Ang and/or my niece almost every night.

I really wish that my phone would work consistently and not just when it wants to.. but I get my new one tomorrow so it should be okay.

Today is mine and Jesse's four months.

I've decided that my worst fault personality wise is that I expect too much out of other people, rather than myself, who I really should expect the most out of. I need to work on changing that.

I'm doing better on not caring as much though.

[25 Jul 2005|06:49pm]
We did our placement tests today. I feel very accomplished. The english exam was retarded but the math test was one of the easiest tests I have ever taken. We got lost a few times but everything worked out in the end!

My phone is still broken but my new one should be here soon.

I am so tired.. I need to catch up on sleep majorly. I got up at 7:30 this morning.. it was terrible!

I start the gym tomorrow... can't wait.

[24 Jul 2005|07:09pm]
Tomorrow Angie and myself are going to go take our placement tests at Wayne State. I think we are going to have to get up around 7:00 in the morning. Our English exam is at 9:00 and our Math is at 2:00. The English one is supposed to only last for an hour so we are going to walk around the campus and check things out until the Math one starts. As soon as we get our results from these tests we can sign up for our classes! I've decided that I am going to double major in Education and Psychology and minor in English.. as least for right now. lol

I'm also going to sign up at my gym for another month, probably on Tuesday b/c I need to get back in shape before I head off to college! I'm gonna work out every single day for 2 hours just like I did in February. I am extremely determined. I'm done waiting around for the bf, I'm taking matters into my own hands and getting things done!

I hate my gay phone too.
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[17 Jul 2005|08:27pm]
I spent most of my weekend with Jesse; Friday and Saturday night.. it was good.

Tonight alls I am doing is cleaning my room.

I'm hoping for tomorrow night to be a girls night,... we'll see.

I started house-sitting today too.

I'm about to eat some dairy queen...mmm

[14 Jul 2005|05:09pm]
So my computer broke/crashed and now we have a new one... anyway that explains why I have not updated.

My life has been pretty okay, pretty on-and-off. One day sucks but then that night will be awesome, so I don't really know what to think. Alls I know is that I am really excited for college.

So the other night I got drunk and walked to Coney Island with billy and terry, I can't believe we walked.. we are crazy.

Last night I attempted to get drunk but was only buzzed, sarah, however, was fucking drunk as fuck! fuck right. lol just kidding..

I'm going up to Universal Mall in a few to visit Angie..

So, even though I have told this story many times I think it is really funny so I'm telling it to those of you who don't know..

a couple of nights ago Jesse and me got into a fight, while I was driving him home.. so I was trying to talk/yell at him and he wasn't answering me.. whatever... we get to his house and he gets out of my car and slams the door and like speed races into his house.. whatever.. so I get home and when I get out of my car I notice something.. well earlier that day we were at his friends house and he had loaned his XBOX to his friend.. and of course he had to put it in my car to take it home.. well b/c he was so pissed or whatever and had to slam my door he totally left his xbox in my car.. so now I have it..

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[07 Jul 2005|06:50pm]
so i'm still experiencing the worst hangover of my life.. and it's 7:00 at night

I've been up since 10:30, I think i'm gonna die

I think I need to find some new friends since mine like to throw cake on me when i'm passed out... who does that?
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happy birthday freak [06 Jul 2005|02:34pm]
[ mood | my eye hurts ]

Yea so I quit LJ for like a day, I can't really stick with anything I give up or try to quit.. so here I am..

I'm gonna do that 25 random facts about me thing that Nikki did.. so here we go.. (I'll provide an update on my life when I think I have something substantial to say)


1. Yesterday I drove on the expressway for the first time since my roadtest a year ago.

2. I used to absolutely hate rap and would never ever listen to it. Now I love it.

3. Since Cinderella, I have done a complete 180

4. For a couple of years I seriously considered going to NYU and was going to take out thousands of dollars in loans to go there.

5. I was a vegetarian for about three years and I quit on Prom and ate some chicken.

6. I think that I am going to die young, like really young.

7. I can't imagine what my future is going to be like.

8. I used to think of myself as a goody-goody and now I think the complete opposite.

9. Ever since Cinderella, I have lied to my mom at LEAST 1x a day.

10. My mom honestly thinks that I am a virgin, have never drank.. etc.

11. Therefore, my mom is stupid.

12. I used to always think that I wanted to get married, have kids young and now it wouldn't really make a difference.

13. I thought I was in love when I was 12.

14. I have been using the word gay daily for about five years now.

15. I used to absolutely love video games and I hardly ever play them now.

16. In fact, I used to like a lot of things that I do not even think about anymore now.

17. I used to say that I would save an animal over a human if they were dying.. and, ironically, I killed a bird a couple of weeks ago.. (acutally it flew into the hood of my car when I was driving.. but it didn't affect me like it would have a couple of months ago).

18. I have no attention span, am extremely impatient.

19. I have a HIGHLY addictive personality.

20. I miss the days when everything was simple and I didn't even care about guys.

21. When I used to play barbies with my niece I would always make her be Ken.

22. I'm afraid to do the things I know I should do the most.

23. I know that when I go away to college I will lose touch with my family almost completely.

24. Within the same day, I can be intensely happy and extremely sad.

25. I worry a lot lately.


Happy 4th of July! [04 Jul 2005|09:46am]
Um so yesterday was weird and today should be fun. Looks like I will be going to the fireworks today with Sarah and Alex, maybe Candice too, I'm not too sure.

So I normally would be sleeping right now but I don't feel good at all.. it has nothing to do with drinking either, b/c it's like in my upper chest.. whatever.. I'll sleep in really late Wednesday since tomorrow I have to get up at 9:00 so I can get my hair done.

I don't really have anything to say except my room is really messy and I'm half-way cleaning it right now.

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